Who you are, in your heart of hearts

" I can't remember how I was getting through life, then... I have the impression of a state of existential patience.  I know I didn't dream actively, that was something I('d) let go of...

When I say I followed a dream coming here, I mean the sort of vision that burns dimly in your mind, the little votive light to the Person you know you are at heart, which sputters feebly in the huge dark cathedral of Who You Have To Be To Get By.  I cherished that flame but did not pursue it; (if not for the chance encounter with the man on the bus) I would have kept that flame for nothing; it would have died when I died and no one would have known it ever existed."

-Celia Brayfield's "Sunset"

Life and it's demands will fill your dark cathedral this time of year with sweet things to keep busy and offer fleeting joy and worries.  Spiritual beings can feel excited at the new possibilities to beautify their surroundings and connect hearts with others, then after the excitement, feel a bit empty and lost as the high energy of others fades away in the face of another ordinary year.  We must remember to keep the votive flame of vision burning, together with our hope of growing it, using this time to bring our true dreams into fruition. 

Remember to day by day light another small candle to join the first!  We can do this symbolically by
Picturing your vision as clear as you can
Cheering yourself up with it when you feel down moments, and
Reminding yourself of it when trivialities threaten to overwhelm you

In doing so, you'll find in the not too distant future, that the whole of your cathedral (ie. your seemingly going-through-the-motions-life) is lit by tiny, warm sparks.  And this is when the person you know you are at heart finally has the power to capture the castle and fill the dream.

Fire & Ice

I was sad to read in The Australian this morning that 108 people lost their lives in the Victorian bushfires over the weekend. The little country town of Marysville, where we used to holiday as kids, is one pretty hamlet that has been incinerated. People who stayed to defend their homes, following all the recommendations of a good fire plan, were engulfed by a wall of flames as the hot wind swept the fire front over 388,000 ha. Remembering how quick the fires sweep through can bring us some comfort when we think about the 108 and animals in the areas.

Whilst up in beautiful Fintry, husby's family and their animals on the farm are shivering under a blanket of snow. Fire & Ice surround us- both too painful to touch.

Can you feel the energy growing in the days leading up to the full moon? Things become scatty, feelings intensify. These few days past we may have been feeling emotional- with the moon in Cancer, an intense water sign and the ruler of emotions. I wonder if the moon in cancer- the mother sign- intensified feelings of people being attached to their homes; and wanting to defend them.

When a house is taken by fire it is powerful symbology that we need to reach inside ourselves and do new things with our time and our talents. It calls us to connect more deeply with those around us; perform work we love; and create energetic value that can never be destroyed. However crazy it sounds- the people whose homes were destroyed this past weekend have, ultimately, been blessed by the universe. You cannot have something such as a home destroyed in this way in the time of the benevolent mother (moon in cancer) without there being a grander, more pure somehow, and more nurturing path ahead.

Some say the world will end in fire
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

- Robert Frost

The moon moves into Leo, fire sign, today, for the full moon. Prayers that more people in victoria decide to leave their homes; prayers that all the wonderful firefighters from our different states go to work in the perfect areas; prayers that the waning moon helps assist in containing and shrinking the blazes too.